These past two days I have been confronted with physical weakness like never before. Chemo is no joke! I do not want to gloss over the difficult parts of this journey.
I never realized what a gift from God ENERGY is.
I’ve barely had the energy to lift my head in many moments, and simple things like going to the bathroom and eating breakfast make me have to go lie down again. This is difficult for a high-energy, on the go person like me!
I knew I would lack energy, but I had no idea to what extent. I could not even muster the strength to journal and hold my bible. This makes me very sad because prayer journalling is how I process – it’s how I commune with God as I read His Word.
BUT, I’m thankful because today, Sunday morning, although I’m not at church with my family, I was able to read God’s Word on my iPhone bible app. It’s easier to hold than my bible when weak and I can look with my head still on the pillow. I’m praying through the Psalms and it’s been such a blessing so far to read each familiar Psalm with a fresh set of eyes. When I can, I’d love to share some of my reflections with you.
I’m thankful because my sister came to visit me ALL the way from Houston, TX! She’s served me so well, making me cheese grits and going on a grocery store run.
beautiful sister.
I’m thankful because I was able to make it to my parent’s house tonight and eat dinner. My aunt and grandmother were visiting from Wilmington, NC and I always love time with them. I stayed on the couch most of the time because I’m just too weak to do much else.
I’m thankful because my children are the most nurturing, loving sweet things on this earth. They love to cuddle me, sing me songs, and I even got a back rub from Samuel this morning.
my little cuddle-bug Samuel
So many sweet friends remind me that I don’t always have to be “up”….I know this. I’m trying my best to see the many blessings that I am still enjoying that cancer will NOT steal from me! Believe me, there have been many rough moments this past weekend, but overall, I’m thankful.
I’m mostly thankful for promises like this: “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT)
His grace abounds,
Brooke
Loved spending time with you today:). This too shall pass and you will have energy again! Love you bunches 🙂
Know you are going to find that perfect cute wig today. Praying for you and your precious family. God’s blessing.
Like Marsha says, this too shall pass. So glad you were able to spend time with your loving family! Good luck to you this week!
Praying this verse with you, Brooke. Thankful He has planted and sown the seed of His truth in you so that when you are to weak to lift a Bible He can still remind you. So glad for you to have your sister near right now. Continuing to pray for His strength for you.
Brooke, I want to share a life verse with you that popped out at me while going through colon cancer and c-dif. I think it’s Psalm 70 or 71:
“Though I take you through harsh and bitter waters, I will restore your life again.”
I wrote that out and put on my refrigerator. I looked at it several times a day and touched it with my whole palm claiming this to be true. It was and is true. When God restores, you are better than the original. I am so grateful for the good that has come out of the “harsh and bitter waters”.
I appreciate so much more and saw the love that others had for me. My relationship with Him became more solid and personal. He was there with me the whole time. He is with you, as well. I’m sure that you know that, but I wanted to encourage you while going through your “harsh and bitter waters.” Restoration is coming. Meredith
Thank you, Meredith. This made me cry, sweet tears. God’s Word is so precious, and your message touched me in a very special way this morning. Thanks for the blessing
you are doing so great brooke! thinking of you and your family!