Thank you so much for praying for me today as I got results from my recent PET scan.
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The Lord is asking me to trust Him even more, as scan results were not as we were praying. A new lesion in left breast and lymph nodes behind chest are active too. No changes to other spots in lung and sternum. I’ll start a new combination chemo : gemcitabine + carboplatin next Wednesday. This chemo is a 21 day cycle with treatments days 1 & 8. I likely developed resistance to Ixempra because I was on it for several cycles earlier in 2017.
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I’m so very weary of this fight and it’s especially hard receiving this tough news without Justin here. But I’m so thankful my sister was with me at the appointment. This is very difficult news to process and I’m not going to diminish how hard this is. But by His grace I do also very much feel held by the Lord and feel He has entrusted this hard journey to me for a reason- we get glimpses but most will remain a mystery for now. He is holding me fast, as I fix my eyes on the unseen, not the seen- asking God to stretch my belief and hope and joy even HERE. He is the treasure which can never be taken.
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Many of you have joined with us to pray for a miracle for these scans. I know God is able to heal me completely, but His miracle didn’t come in that way this time. I’ll keep praying that miracle will come in the future. But as I process this news, I’m going to thank God for the many other miracles- my salvation through Jesus (resurrecting me from death to life); and even today the miracle of hope— even here. Join me in praying for healing this side of heaven, so that I can be here for my children. I know He is able, but even if not I will praise Him as I see His grace even in the darker parts of the journey.
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2 Cor 4:16-18 “So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison,as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal“.
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