I’ve been reflecting a lot on what it looks like for me to be a Christ-Exalting , young widow, mother of three children, and stage four cancer -fighter. I needed a new vision to wrap around these days to remind me that there is so much purpose even here, and God wants to use every part of this journey. But it has been a struggle as a majority of my weeks I feel pretty rotten because of chemo. Lately I see buds of life that darkness once smothered. I don’t want to “shrink back”, but be a vessel to show the surpassing greatness of Jesus Christ.
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My question: “how can I be the fullest, most God-centered, Christ-exalting, Bible-saturated, loving, humble, mission-advancing, justice-seeking, others-serving person I can be in this current season, within these set of circumstances.”
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No doubt, called to serve, love, and set an example of faith with my three children and the Fisher children. And beyond that- opportunities to share the true Hope of Christ with groups of women. My heart swells studying theology and the Bible, and to work to help it make sense to others (as others further down the line helped it make sense to me.)
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I am thankful for these few moments in chemo to process these thoughts. I’m being VERY careful and prayerful with every commitment and every “Yes”. This is an especially sacred season as I continue to heal and rest and look ahead to the next season.
